Growing weary.

Today is now day 3 that Wyndham is laying here at home- sick. Chip and I were 'planning out our day' for today's schedule {ie. who would get the kids to school, how my classes would go and when we should try and get Wyndham in to the doctor} and I was feeling tired and worn out by last night. Being concerned for a child's health is hard work. Both physically and mentally. It's just hard to watch her take 2 steps back and one forward and to wait and wonder what to do next.
I was thankful when I got an early morning phone call telling me that our school was closed for a snow day today. I thanked God for one more day of 'rest and recovery' that suddenly came out of nowhere, and asked Him for wisdom and strength for all of us today.
Wyndham has kept down the bare minimum for fluids to stay hydrated...we give her dropperfuls of enhanced water and she has still has a hard time keeping that down. Even one teaspoonful at a time each hour.
Early this afternoon she will be going in to the doctor. So between now and then we need her to keep down more fluids so that she can avoid a hospital stay and IV fluids. I think she is tired of all her aches and just wants to feel 'better'. Thankfully the other three kids have been getting along very well and eating and sleeping well too. They seem to understand that Wyndham needs extra care and that Mommy and Daddy don't have too much tolerance for misbehaving kids.
At times like these I begin to grow weary of asking for prayers and for not having good news to pass along. Wyndham's MRI is now rescheduled for next month and it seems like there just is a never-ending list of things that need to be attended too.
The blessing in such hardships for me is the realization that there is more to life than what we go through...and someday we will be free from these sorts of pains and trials. In one of my readings yesterday, I took comfort and felt my load lighten when I read about Heaven. The writer {Joni Erickson Tada} was talking about how sometimes our momentary troubles threaten to 'blind us' or 'sidetrack us' from the realization that Heaven is real and awaits us. And it's not that too far off- especially when you think of how long eternity is compared to the moments we have in life. The phrase that spoke to me yesterday was something like this, she said, "Earth but cloaks our Heaven...". Meaning sometimes the stuff we face and the things that weigh heavy on our hearts are just that 'stuff'. The idea that this will all be but a blip on the screen of eternity someday is comforting. To know according to 2 Corinthians 4:18 we can have hope if we claim this verse, which says, "So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen. For what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal".
Yes, we are all growing weary at this point. But at the same time we gain a growing sense of Heaven and it helps keep things in perspective. Trials can make us all bitter or better. We thank God that with each testing, our faith and outlook just seems to strengthen and become more clear. That is something that is hard to believe, until you are weary and go through it yourself. That is a big part of why I share so openly on this blog and in 'real life' too. Chip and I both feel strongly that if God is having us walk through life on a bumpy, narrow path, then one of the things we can do along the way is share what He has helped us learn and how He keeps giving us strength for the journey.
My hope is that this is just another 'bump in the road' and that we will all be back on our feet and feeling stronger for the journey. Thanks again for your prayers. I will keep posting updates on Wyndham and really hope I can post pictures of her smiling, happy self again soon!