"You're the love of my Heart"

Teagan had this little game where she would say, "Guess what?" and we would ask, "what?". Then she would ask again, "Guess what?" and again, we would say "what?". After two or three times she would answer, "You're the love of my heart". It was sometimes silly; sometimes very tender {especially at bedtime}. It was definitely my favorite guessing game to play with her and always ended in hugs and kisses.
One of the things that Chip and I would do to one another after Teagan died was send each other emails with the words, 'Angel Mail' listed in the subject line, or we would leave cards or notes to each other from Teagan- for special occasions or sometimes for no reason at all. Other than we missed her so much and it was a special way of making her 'seem closer to us' than she was.
Yesterday, for my birthday, after I had opened cards and gifts from Chip and my kids, Chip handed me a couple of gifts wrapped in hot pink Hello Kitty paper. I knew. That same knot that gets stuck in my throat at times when I suddenly remember, came back. I looked at the card and it had a little "stick angel" in place of the return address and it just made me smile. Bella said, "who is that from?" and I just showed her the card. I said, "There's a little angel on it...who's our special angel?"...to which she asked, "Teagan?". I think she really believed the gifts and cards came from Teagan. It's much like how she still believes in Santa.
"Teagan" gave me the cd soundtrack and book, "P.S. I Love You.". Tonight Chip and I will go out to the movie.
I don't know how or why I was blessed with such an amazing little girl in my life. She asked me more than once, "How many days old am I?". I told her, "Teagan, you're a lot of days and you have a lot of days left. I don't know how many exactly, but God numbers all our days perfectly." I had no idea she only had a couple of 'perfect days' left. My heart still aches that she lived only 1595 days {if I did the math correctly}, but I have to trust and believe that God knows and it works perfectly into the Plan He designed before the beginning of time.
My heart knows that she was a gift. I still love getting 'angel mail' and remembering that she was and always will be the love of my heart.