Wednesday, February 24, 2010

Tired.


I can tell you one thing today. I am tired. I sometimes wonder if it's harder to be the one watching and caring for and empathizing with the sick person than it is being the sick person. I would switch places with Wyndham and climb in the hospital bed and hook up to the IV machine if I could no question about that. But there is also a certain amount of stress and strain on the rest of us who juggle the needs and schedules of the rest of the family and try to keep the routine of life going even when someone is sick. It's a challenge, I'll tell you that.
I think Chip is doing a better job of dealing with our life issues than I am. I am sleep-deprived and still battling my own cold and sort of wishing I was a bear right now. Nothing sounds better than climbing into a dark cave and sleeping away a couple of months. =)
I spent the day with Wyndham yesterday and she just wasn't taking fluids like the doctor had hoped she would and she still has a horrible cough that gives her fits off and on and sets her back on fluid intake. She had almost no energy yesterday and yet she wouldn't take a nap. So she needs more rest and recovery and we're hoping she'll start turning the corner sometime today. When I got home late last night the house was quiet and smelled of fresh baked cookies. Chip somehow found the energy and desire to make a batch of peanut butter chocolate chip cookies with the kids. I think he earns a SuperDad badge for that effort. We caught up with each other for about 4 minutes and then he was out the door with his overnight bag to spend the night with Wyndham.
I have to admit, I do falter in my faith when I am tired and weak and now is no exception. It's hard to see how an all-loving God can allow sickness to drag on and how He doesn't just snap His fingers and make things better again. But in my weakness and lacking energy I know the best thing I can do is hang on and keep trusting. No matter how tired I get.
Thanks so much for your prayers and support for all our family when we get worn down especially. I am hopeful that things will get better soon. I like to remind myself of the quote which goes, "Always remember that in the midst of the deepest valley there is a mountaintop on either side." Sometimes the way seems long, but I do know that ultimately all roads out of the valley lead to a mountaintop experience. I am ready for that to happen. After I get a good long nap. Which may just happen later on today. Here's to HOPE!

12 comments:

Anonymous said...

May God wrap you all in His loving arms and give you the the strength you need to get through this bump in the road.
God Bless Wyndham!

Cheryl said...

Sorry to hear that you are going through a trial period. It is so difficult when you are in the midst of it.

Sometimes I try to remember other trials that I've been through where I was in a similar spiritual funk and then recall how God pulled me up from the miry clay.
Psalm 40:2
He brought me up out of the pit of destruction, out of the miry clay,And He set my feet upon a rock making my footsteps firm.

Praying for a firm footing for you and your family. Praying for wisdom for the doctors and health for you and your family...and hope :)

With love and hope,
Cheryl
We are Nine

Lauren Kelly said...

And I am hoping right along with you friend. Love ya!

Linda Beeson said...

I so understand! Our youngest grandson just spent a week in the hospital and we were all so tired. We all took shifts and just going back and forth and not getting your other things done is exhausting. So sorry she is not doing well but it is so good you guys can be close to her. I'll pray for all of you.

polly's path said...

Get well soon, Wyndham!!!!
Praying for everyone!

humblepie said...

I'm right there in the valley with you! I, too, get very confused when good and faithful servants get dumped on. Sometimes it seems the closer we get to God, the more He "tests" us, but that seems really counter intuitive to His unconditional love. I don't understand how prayer-answering works, but I do know that clinging to God in the valleys is the only thing we really have, even when our faith is tissue-thin.

Stephanie said...

Oh no! It is SO hard to be a mom sometimes, especially when you are tired. May you find rest in Him... I'll be praying for your sweet Wyndham.

Anonymous said...

Praying for your precious daughter to recover quickly! Also praying for you all to get some much needed rest.
Blessings,
Lori

Lisa D :) said...

Hi Jody, I've been keeping you all in my prayers and have added a prayer for REST for you. Hoping Wyndham turns the corner quickly, and things start getting back to normal again. In the meantime, Chip totally deserves kudos -- those cookies look delicious!!!

Cathy said...

Thank you for your honesty. Thinking of you and hoping everyone feels better soon.

kanishk said...

Praying for a firm footing for you and your family. Praying for wisdom for the doctors and health for you and your family...and hope :)

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jo said...

Wyndam.....we have been away so I didnt know you were sick sweetie!!!!

Sam sends u a BIG BIG hug and one for mama and papa too!!

Get well soon brave girl....big kiss Jo xxxxx