Friday, September 19, 2008

To think I almost got my "wish".

I am blogging one-handed and it feels amazing. I have the most delicate-smelling, soft, sweet, perfectly formed baby boy in my arm and on my chest. My heart feels as though it could explode. In the best way possible- from overflowing love and wonder. My mind can hardly wrap around the fact that I once made Chip prmise me we would never, ever have kids. It was the one wish- the one desire of my heart as I dreamed of my/our future together back in 1994.
And now here I sit...with a heart so dramatically changed- so transformed- so humbled that I am brought to tears.
I hardly recognize myself. I have thanked God a hundred times in just the past 3 hours that His plan for my future included not only Teagan, Brock, Wyndham, Bella and Ava, but someone so precious I couldn't have picked out a more amazing little one- Baby Crew.
I just want to give praise and glory and honor to God- from whom ALL things flow. I thank Him for the things He has given and blessed our lives with, and I thank Him for knowing what is best for us every single day. The trials and hardships definitely make moments and days like today a million times more incredible and memorable. Sometimes it's hard to accept all that we walk through...but there are mountaintop peaks from which I blog right now, and looking at life from this point just makes it so worth it.
Worth all the pain.
Worth the surrender.
Worth the questions I've asked.
Worth the concerns that I've entertained.
Thanks to so many of you for loving our family though all these things. For praying. For caring.
For just following "our story" and letting us touch your lives in some small way.
God is good.

I feel wonderful at this point and after such a speedy induced labor/delivery I am ready to have three more. It's Chip that needs the convincing now. And I know the hardest part would be choosing all the names!
I promise pictures as soon as I get my laptop. But until then, you can take my word for it that Crew is more than I thought a baby could be. At two hours and 15 minutes old, I stared down at him and the tears flowed freely. He's so perfect, like I said, I just couldn't believe he was mine. I have never deserved such a gift. But I am going to soak up every minute of him. He's just hours old and already I can't imagine my life without him. I am totally and completely smitten. And it's the most wonderful thing. Ever.

80 comments:

Robin, Tommy, and Manze said...

YAY!!!! Congratulations!!!! I can't wait to see pictures and I love the name Crew! Many blessings to you and your sweet family!

Erin Saeger said...

Congrats to your whole family! At almost 38 weeks pregnant with our 3rd boy, we will be meeting him on Tuesday.....and I am certain I will also feel you "mountaintop", and thankfulness. Thanks for sharing, and am looking forward to seeing pics of Crew!

Kirsty said...

Beautiful, loved reading those words! Congratualtions on your bubba...enjoy your 'babymoon':-)

Linda 85 said...

Congratulations! I'm so happy for you. Enjoy him, they grow up way too fast. My baby is 9 and I don't know where the time went.

Kathy said...

I am so happy for you! I have a big grin on my face just for your family.
Hugs!

erin said...

congratulations, jody to you and your beautiful family.
crew is a wonderful name, many blessings to you!
erin

photoeye said...

You are so right that going through valleys make the mountain tops so much sweeter! I am so happy for you and your new little angel!! God has truly blessed you and you know it! What a wonderful thing.

Hopesrising said...

I love this post. Congratulations!!
Thanks so much for sharing your joy and that of our entire family today.
Welcome Baby Crew! Can't wait to see the pictures.
Here's to many blessings

KatieButler said...

Congratulations to your family, and welcome to the world, little one!

Rachel said...

CONGRATS!!! This is such happy news :) Enjoy this time with your new little bundle of joy :)

katemcdonald said...

CONGRATS. I cannot wait to see the photos! What a great name too..

Jo said...

very proud of my very special friend........and thats all i can say

xx

clg0513 said...

congratulations - this post just made my day. I cannot wait until you post picture.

Anonymous said...

wow Jodie- I am so happy for you! What a blessed family they are to have you as their mom.

Thanks for sharing!

Ramona

surfmomma4 said...

Yea way to go!! Love the name..and I;m so happy for all of you..your family deserves all the happiness Our God can bestow on you..can't wait to see the pictures..God Bless

MandieGirl said...

I'm so happy for you all! Can not wait to see pictures of the sweet boy!

KimB said...

Congratulations and best wishes!! Can't wait to see the pictures!

Anonymous said...

Yippee!!!!!

Blessings,

Abbie VDP

Sara said...

Wow. I just can't even imagine how enormous your heart must feel at the moment. Kiss his little head for all of us in the blog world who love him already. Enjoy your moments...

sara

Traci said...

Congrats!! Mat you and your family enjoy that sweet little one. And I love his name!!

Marcie said...

Congratulations, Jody, Chip, Brock, Wyndham, Bella & Ava! Baby Crew has been born into an amazing family, so congratulations to Crew, too!

So, so, happy he's here and healthy and can't wait to see pictures!

Loved your post!

harmonysong said...

Welcome, Crew! So happy for you! Many blessing on these precious first moments with your son!

Becca said...

Oh Jod...
I LOVE you.
I am so proud of you--as a mama, as a sister, as a WOMAN.
You are amazing.

Welcome to the world, baby Crew.

: )

xoxo.

Anonymous said...

What a wonderful blessing - huge congratulations to your entire family.:) Enjoy your gift.
Linda J

Jennifer said...

CONGRATULATIONS!!! i am so happy for all of you! cant wait to meet him- we will be back up at church in few weeks! until then, can't wait to see pictures!! :-)

-jennifer

Lisa D :) said...

Oh Jodi, I am crying with JOY reading your blog entry!!! CONGRATULATIONS on the birth of your son, Crew. Great name! Can't wait to see the photos of the happy family and your newest miracle.

Jane-Jane said...

praise God!!! I'll be praying for Chip to give in to your desires! God has given you a gift that many of us don't receive. Thank you for allowing us to live vicariously through you!

mel said...

so happy for you!!! i think it is so precious that you were able to get all of your thoughts down when Crew was just hours old. It will be so wonderful to look back on it all and know exactly how you felt on this day! Cannot wait to see photos of little Crew!

Tricia Wilson said...

YAY! I am so happy for you and I can feel your joy through your post. Congratulations to the Ferlaak family on it's newest gift from Heaven.

Anonymous said...

Oh, that is so wonderful! Your words are truly a blessing! You couldn't have picked a better name, its beautiful. :) Thanks for keeping us updated! I can't wait to see pictures of the little guy. I am praying for you, and sharing the joy as you hold your little boy!

Bethany

carriex3 said...

God bless you, Chip, and all the little ones, including little Crew.
You are inspiring, I appreciate your kind and honest words.
Carrie
www.creativeandblessed.com

patterns of ink said...

O, Happy Day!
Thanks for informing us so quickly. I'm away from school today--over at my mom's house (sorting it out, etc.), but I came by to see if there was any news. Congratualations. Now get some rest and enjoy that baby boy and the family all around.
=)

Deb said...

Congrats! Let the memory making begin! Little Crew will add more love, joy and amazement to your family than you ever imagined. I'm so happy for all of you!
Deb in Va

Red Door said...

Congratulations FERLAAKS! I have been checking every day thinking -- I wonder if this will be the day the littlest Ferlaak arrives, and now he is here! I am so excited for all of you and baby Crew! I can't wait to see photos. Oh, and sorry Chip, but I second the vote for three more. =)

Violet said...

Can't wait to see pictures. What a blessed little boy to have such a joyous Mama. Good job giving glory where it is due!

We are awaiting the arrival of my newest cousin.... anyday now. My Uncle is 40 and thought he would never get to have kids.... God had other plans for him too, we just had to wait for Gods timing....that's all.

Cheeziemommie said...

That was such a beautiful post! Congratulations to your family!
PS Did you know that Becky Higgins just named her baby Crew as well?!

Sherri P eh said...

Congratulations Ferlaaks, and many blessings. What a lucky boy to have those wonderful big sisters, and a special big brother, waiting to meet him!!

Gretchyn said...

Congrats Ferlaak family! Blessings to all of you and welcome Crew!

Jenna said...

Congratulations!!!! I am so happy for ya'll! LOVE the name! Can't wait to "meet" Baby Crew!!!!

jennie said...

Congrats to you and your family.
And yes Jody, you do deserve him!

So happy for you!

Susan said...

Congratulations to you and your family on your healthy new edition!

amytangerine said...

much love sweets!!!

Anonymous said...

Dear Chip and Jody~
Congratulations on the arrival of baby Crew! So glad that everything went well.
Blessings,
Tammy Up North

Debbie F. (kitleen) said...

CONGRATS!!! I am so excited for you and Chip and the kids!! Great name.

Go get some sleep! =)

Lori said...

Congratulations! Love your blog. Praying for all of you. Blessings,
Lori

lisa garay said...

i keep checking your blog for pictures!
my heart is so happy for you all right now.
...and just to read the words that you used to describe how you feel about your sweet boy makes me want to have another one!
congratultions, again :)

lori said...

YAY!!! So glad you are doing well and so in love!!

Just Me said...

Yay! Congratulations! Thanks for taking the time to share this with "all of us" :o) Now "we" get to watch him grow up...that is so cool! Have a fabulous night! Can hardly wait to see the first Ferlaak Family photo with Crew.

Take care.

Jill said...

GOD BLESS YOU JODY!

So excited for you and your family!

Can't wait to see the pictures of the new man of the house!

Love his name! Saying a special thank You tonight to our LORD for all the gifts and blessings He brings us!

May the Lord keep Crew all the days of his life!

Love In Him,
Jill

Martha Bonneau said...

Congrats!! So very, very happy for you.

bnovacek said...

so, so very happy for you jods! can't wait to see baby crew!hey, i think grey and crew would be great friends :) and they are exactly a month apart in age.

Q's NEWS said...

Yes you do deserve every minute of this happiness - and more!

Congratulations to you and your family!!! I think you can do this kid thing with one hand tied behind your back!

Hugs and kisses from WV,
Susan

sarah, rsm said...

Welcome Baby Crew! Congratulations and special Blessings to the welcoming family!

angela said...

sweet congrats to you and your family!! i love his name:)

Keri said...

Congratulations!! I been checking in daily waiting for the big news!

I vote for 3 more.......it's fun watching you do such an amazing job mothering those kiddos!

I'm Kelli. said...

Congratulations, Honey! I can't wait to see pictures of sweet, sweet baby Crew!

Charin said...

I'm so happy for you!!! :) :)
I love how beautifully you talked about that love that only a Mama can feel...it's definitely God's most precious gift to us. :)

angi said...

Congrats & love & hugs & prayers welcoming baby Crew through happy tears! :)

Devan said...

Congrats on Baby Crew!!! Many Blessings!!!

Jaci said...

Yeah!! Congrats on the new bundle of joy.. I love the name, can't wait to see pictures. I hope have a great recovery.

Jan said...

Happy birthday, Crew and all the Ferlaak family as you welcome in this new little precious life.

I'm soooo glad to hear that all is well with you and can't WAIT to see some pics!

Huge blessings and congrats!
(pascrapgal)

corinne5 said...

Jody again, huge congrats :)
I love how you descibe yor feelings in this post, it is so much how I felt after I delivered Jadenn, enjoy every minute of it.

corinnexxx

Kim said...

Congratulations!! You and your family are truly inspirations.

God Bless You.

Starlight said...

Awwwwwwwwwwwww!
I love you Jody,and I'm sure that God loves even more you deserve allthe love in this world!I can't wait to meet Crew I bet he is a prince!
Congratulations to all of your family and a kiss for you dear.
xoxo
Lucy

Claire said...

Congratulations! I'm so happy for you for the safe arrival.

I hope you do have three more! You and Chip make beautiful babies and (IMHO) give them great names.

Hugs,
Claire

Adrienne said...

Praise the Lord with you! Welcome, sweet Crew, to the Nitty Gritty world of life on earth! You have a very wonderful family, which you already know, so just sit tight and enjoy the ride! Praying for you and yours in CO. Love always, Ade xoxox

Chrissy B said...

Congrats to all of your for a beautiful new member to your family! God bless you all!!

Lisar said...

Congratulations and God Bless all of you...look forward to seeing photos! Lisa

caro said...

so happy for all of you. well done Jody. You are a HERO!!!! enjoy you boy-child. xxXX c

Anonymous said...

Thanking God for your precious gift.

jane said...

Congratulations!! I have never posted before and I am not even sure how I found your site. I have been reading for a few months now.
Recently (4 weeks) my sister lost her eldest son of 8 in a car accident. It is the first death in our family. He was 17. After returning from that trip my dear friend lost her 10 year old daughter in a drowning. My heart hurts for them. I do not know their pain, I only know I am sad because they are sad. I will be returning to visit my sister again for she is really struggling and all the family lives far. Her husband is a pastor of a very large church and she has no real close friends.
Do you have any advice for me? What words of comfort to I share? Or do i just continue to listen?
I am so happy for you and you new baby Crew.
Jane

Kathy said...

Congratulations to you and your entire family...I was brought to tears reading your last post..what an AMAZING time for you, soak it all up and enjoy. God is so good.
Many, many blessings to you and your beautiful family.

Kasey said...

Congrats on your beautiful new blessing. i love his name!!!!

*Jilly* said...

Congratulations Jody..on your precious "gift" from God.
They are awesome..aren't they? :)

Jennifer said...

Congrats! What a little blessing! I cannot wait to see pictures! I have enjoyed reading your blog over the past several months. We are due Oct. 3rd with our first baby who happens to be a boy also! Please post pictures soon!!

Sarah said...

You are so fortunate to be able to write all that you are feeling at one of life's highest moments so you will always have this to look back on. I wish that I had had my laptop with me when I was snuggling my newborn almost a year ago so I too could chronicle my feelings. Keep it up! This is such a precious time in your family's life. Soak it up!

Jacki said...

Congratulations on another perfect and beautiful child for your blessed family!!!! Love the name Crew!

Jodie R. said...

Congrats, Jody! We're praising God with you and your family. What a blessing children are! We pray all God's best for you all.

irene said...

Congratulations Ferlaak family with little baby Crew coming into your family. Bye Irene

Lisa A said...

Congratulations, on the birth of your New Son...He is absolutely adorable.....LisaA
P.S I regularly visit your blog