Tuesday, May 30, 2006

Two more scrap page layouts...


Here are two more layouts that I completed this weekend- both highlighting Teagan and some of the thoughts I've entertained since she was killed, back in July 2001. I'm finding out that scrapping is a good way for me to get my memories down on page that, in the future, will probably benefit my kids. I think it will help them to know how much Teagan was a big part of my life and how her death shapes the way I live my life today.
I won't go into all the details of the products I used on them- but if you see something and you really must know what it is or where I got it, email me and I'll be happy to tell you more. Also, I am hoping to get enough layouts completed and printed out somehow so that I can submit them for a contest. Therefore, I probably won't be sharing too many more layouts; the contest asks that the majority of the pages should not have been posted on any online forum. I don't know if a blog is a forum- but I might as well not do something stupid to get disqualified.
Hope you all had a good weekend remembering and enjoying too- as you can see- my thoughts were of Teagan and that's always a good thing for me.
You should be able to click on the pictures to enlarge them, but I still don't think the journaling is "readable". So here it is typed out for all to read:
"Coke floats & Pinky Promises"
One month after I took this picture, I curled my littlest finger around Teagan's and promised to love her forever. [~for the very last time~]
This picture is now among my treasures. I wouldn't trade the moment depicted in my life here- for anything.
It taught me that it's okay to bend the rules sometimes. It taught me to savor and enjoy every little moment...because you never know when it may be the last.
I find it interesting that life's biggest lessons can be learned in the simplest things. Like Coke floats and pinky promises. (Under the picture says, "Teagan and Daddy enjoying a Coke float at 11:00 pm~ just a month before she died.)
The next page is titled, "because of you" and reads:
because of you...
I have laughed my loudest, cried my hardest and searched the deepest part of me. I have realized my weaknesses and discovered new strengths. I have shared my soul with others.
because of you...
I have learned to live in the moment and appreciate the present. I have learned to be quiet and to reflect on the past. I have gained new insights & sought new purpose in life. I have learned when to hold on and learned to let go. I have learned to embrace what I cannot see and have deepened my faith in the future.
because of you...
I am more grateful, more humble, more sensitive and more forgiving. I am more open, more joyful, more confident and more hopeful. Although you only physically touched me for four short years, your spirit still inspires me each and everyday.
Dear Teagan~
My life is enriched beyond measure...
because of you.
I don't claim to be the best scrapbooker in the world; I'm still figuring out the whole page process and trying to find out what "works" for me. I am enjoying the final product and I love seeing my first album fill up with pages. And you already know I can write and journal about anything as proof from reading this blog- so I'll never have a shortage of scrap ideas. If my pages do more than I expect (which is for me to enjoy making and looking at them), they might even inspire you too! Happy "back to your regular schedule" Tuesday.

21 comments:

Juel said...

From your pages Jody I would never even suspect you were a beginner!! You are a natural girl!! Beautiful pages, beautiful story!!

Brad said...
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Brad said...

One of the greatest things about scrapbooking (that I have learned from Carrie) is taking the time to write down your innermost thoughts - things that otherwise might not be recorded. You have certainly done that here... Very powerful.

- Brad

Kellie said...

Beautiful pages. Beautiful sentiment. Beatiful girl.

Scrapping can be cathartic as well as providing a place to remember Teagan and teach the rest of the family about their sister. Well done.

Dead Man Blogging said...

Hi Jody: I am not a "scrapper," and am pretty sure I never will be, but in occasionally checking in on your stuff I have come to see how popular scrapping is. It seems like keeping a scrapbook has been around for generations, but this electronic medium seems to be expanding its appeal. What is most touching is that it helps you to keep Teagan alive in you and now in so many others. -DMB

Suzelle said...

Jody....wow...amazing work and amazing words :)

Valerie said...

love it. thanks for sharing honey!

karen said...

Just beautiful. What a lovely way to teach your children about their big sister.

Cris said...

I love your pages! You definately have some creative talent girl!

Katrina said...

Jody! These are flippin' amazing! Great work....beautiful thoughts have a way of turning themselves into beautiful pages.

(ps. I've missed you. We need to spend more cyber-time with each other!)

Suzanne said...

your pages are beautiful - straight from the heart!!

eek said...

Beautiful layouts - i love scrapbooking because it can be very therapeutic.

On a lighter note, thanks for the tip about the coconut lattes at Starbucks. I had one over the weekend - delicious!

ee :)

Jenny said...

Great layouts Jody!

I think about your family frequently since I stumbled upon Nitty.Gritty. a couple months ago.

Teagan was such a beautiful girl and looks and spirit. Now you are going to have to color copy these so her brother and sisters can have them to remember/know her by.

Since scrapping is so therapeutic, can you write off supplis for your medical expenses?

Adrienne said...

Oh Jody!!!!! BEAUTIFUL pages, such heartfelt journaling.

rhonda said...

AWESOME pages!
Your journaling is just amazing.
Good luck in the contest...cause I think you are a winner!

Rhonda said...

Those are really good! You did a great job of journaling. That is the hardest part of scrapbooking for me.

manababies said...

Beautiful work. But your inspiration comes from a good place, even though it is so profoundly sad.

Abigailsmom said...

Your pages are beautiful. Thanks for sharing

Deanna- yep Dee-na said...

glad i got a chance to come see these. i love them! you are just scrappin' away. :) yay!

Janna said...

Jody, I read your story about what happened to your family on the day that your precious little girl Teagan died. My heart just broke into a million pieces! I can't imagine what that must have been like... and how it still affects your life.

I am so happy to know that you are believers in Jesus Christ... b/c that has a tremendous impact on how tragedies like these shape your lives. One of my lifelong friends (and his fiance) was murdered in California back in August 2004 and I saw first-hand how heartwrenching it was for their family... and he was an adult. (I am just saying that because I think the tragedy seems so much more heartbreaking when you lose a child when they are still a child.) They were believers though too and their response was nothing short of incredible. They always had (and still have) so much hope and faith in Christ... even in the midst of the pain. And in that sense... knowing that your child was a believer... losing them is so bittersweet. Because you know you'll see them again one day... but you'll miss them tremendously in the meantime. I just keep remembering that my friend and his sweet fiance are with Jesus... and so is Teagan. What a comforting thought... to know that they are cradled in the arms of our Savior! We can all rest assured in that.

God bless your family and your children. Your faith is incredibly inspirational. ♥ I will never forget your story... and I'll keep your family in my prayers.

Britt said...

"Coke Floats" is fabulous. Perfect picture and perfect journaling.